omg why. ridiculousness.

[danieloneiroi]

I don't know what I have to do to make people (particularly who work in medical care) understand that

NO, I am NOT crazy
I am NOT "just anxious,"
YES "it" WILL be "that bad"
YES I *know* it isn't *supposed* to be

BUT LOOK AT THE REASON I AM HERE YOU FUCKING IDIOT, YES IT IS IN FACT THAT BAD. THE ICD IS ON THE ORDER. IT'S THERE. IT'S WRITTEN THERE. ALSO I AM TELLING YOU MY LIMITATIONS IN ADVANCE TO MAKE SURE IT IS SAFE FOR ME. JFC... 

I am exhausted. The entire week has been a wreck, in part because people can't get their shit together and I'm the one who suffers, tangibly, monetarily, for it. 

Fortunately I'm at lease somewhat aware of what not to do when I'm having focal seizures... when people are famously rational. But I shouldn't have to do this AT ALL when people who are far better paid than me are in charge of my medical care.

::sighs:: 

That said. I'm getting swaps out as soon as I can. 

I'm not setting up the last few swaps. I think they were planned but not posted. There will be no swaps from me in December. 

See you all in January!